war of the foxes - richard silken / waterloo - ABBA / euripides’ medea - the little theatre / anne carson / the three fates - luca cambiaso / the oresteia - aeschylus / road to hell II - hadestown / when i met you - mira lightner / andersen’s fairy tale anthology
[TEXT ID: I cook rice the way my mother taught me when I was ten years old. I peel my apples before I eat them because that’s how my father did it. I watch movies differently now because a friend I haven’t seen in four years once told me that every scene could have an implied message, and I enjoy hearing some of ‘the father’s jokes’ just because he used to tell me the whole way home. There are songs I can’t listen to anymore because they remind me of the people I used to love. We are somehow a little part of everyone we have met in our life, and even if they leave, there are some pieces of them that are still inside us; as a home, a lesson, or maybe a story worth telling- it’s kind of our choice now. END ID]
i mean this completely seriously but… a cup of coffee can save your life a little, a shower can save your life a little, making your favorite meal can save your life a little…….little things actually add up to really big things in the long run if you let them, the secret to surviving everyday is infusing a little bit of magic into the mundane i truly believe that
When I was studying early development in infants and children at university, I learned about toxic stress and how this can affect your memory and overal physical health.
We all produce cortisol, this is something we need to stay present during the day. Cortisol is useful. It helps us with learning, memory, and helps us regulate stress. An average cortisol level benefit us for better cognitive and memory processes, and it is also overal helpful for our immune system. Cortisol levels usually fluctuate during the day. In the graph beneath you can see how it might look like in a healthy person:
But if you experience events that are both traumatic and chronic in nature, your cortisol levels have a neurotoxic effect. This means that the adrenal glands produce so many stress hormones that they, so to speak, “poison’’ the brain. Neurons in the hippocampus might die, which causes memory issues and a weaker immune system.
As a result, even in later life, many traumatic memories cannot be properly remembered narratively. Which means remembering something as a story from beginning to end. These memories are stored in different fragments, or the brain may not store them at all.
This happens because the brain is activated into survival mode during a traumatic event, storing a memory is less of a priority. Survival in that moment is more important.
In adulthood, traumatic experiences can be and remain a burden when trauma start at a very young age. Even if there are no clear narrative memories.
People used to say about traumatic experiences in very young children, “it’s not so bad, they can’t remember it anyway.” This is absolutely not the case. For example, if a mother is in a stressful situation during pregnancy and she produces too many stress hormones, it affects as a result, the unborn baby. This is because the mother automatically passes these hormones on to the baby in the womb. Even the unborn baby may experience symptoms from this chronic stress later in adulthood.
Today I told my mother “ohh, finally winter season is here” and after sometime I realized that I don’t want this winter. I want 6 years old back winters. I want that winter where my whole family sit together on the terrace and eat tangerines. I want that winter where I do my homework under the clear sky while sitting on my favorite chair. And this reminds me of a “Alida Nugent” quote that is “You still crave lemonade, but the taste doesn’t satisfy you as much as it used to. You still crave summer, but sometimes you mean summer, five years ago.”
“My mother’s trust issues are leaking into my chest and I’ve got my father’s nose and his tendency to stop calling back so I’m sorry about the 9 missed calls I have from you and the 6 voicemails I never played, I swear I’d love you if I could.”
idk who needs to hear this rn but suffering is not noble. take the tylenol
One time when I was younger I was refusing to take headache medicine and my mom said “the person who invented that medicine is probably so sad you won’t let them help you” and now every time I find myself denying medicine I just imagine the saddest scientist making those big wet eyes like “why won’t you let me help” and whoop then I take the medicine
Naming the female razor brand Venus is so personally offensive to me….you think Venus the goddess of love and sex and beauty was shaving her PUSSY? Go kill yourself
truthfully speaking, being raised as a jehovah’s witness was incredibly traumatic, as was leaving. somehow more traumatic though, is the exjw ‘community’, behaving in the exact same way as elders would just in an effort to ‘save’ active jws instead. the hate, bitterness and intolerance for beliefs of all kinds is astounding. at least jws pretend to be tolerant, accepting and loving. triggered af today and it’s rare that i make a personal post at all, let alone one like this, but considering that my family won’t mention the entire subject, there’s nobody else around and i daren’t keep a diary, i guess it’s going here!
pondering over a long-lost time when menstrual pads didn’t stick to everything but the underwear and weren’t advertised as though they’re performance enhancing drugs
